February 2010
33 posts
tired
I have so much to say but my mind is so messed up right now I don’t even know why.
weirdest
mood ever. I hate these moods, the ones where you don’t know what you’re feeling. I don’t know whether its happiness, sadness, excitement, anxiety, stress, or blank.
I guess thats just what it is, blank.
maybe sleep will provide an answer?
WAIT A MINUTE!!!
okay so that post, that I reblogged from mulsa…
I’m an idiot for not recognizing the quote. I’m pretty damn sure thats from perks of being a wallflower. not the loljk part but the “and in that moment, I swear we were infinite” part.
Interesting
weekend, I’ll say. haha
glad I got to get away from tracy and see new things.
Alicia took me to her mom’s house in Penryn, which was a pretty neat, completely different environment.
I’ve been tired all day, and I should be going to sleep soooon
January 2010
75 posts
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went to bed at 7pm
turned my phone off
felt like shit
couldn’t sleep till my after my parents went to sleep, which was after 11:30
woke up at 4:59 only to find out I had trouble sleeping after that until now
and now I’m sitting here crying because I feel like shit
and I don’t even know what’s wrong
I wish there were something
that would set me apart from everybody else. Instead, I feel the same as everyone else. Just as I feel myself starting to like someone, I get these bad vibes that he doesn’t like me and he likes some other girl. and that would make 100% sense because I’m not very attractive and I’m pretty much a guy. I don’t have boobs and I have an ugly laugh. I’m never more than...
why
do I feel like shit today?
I think I can turn this around.
sometimes
the smartest people don’t get the simplest concepts…
I want
a boyfriend.
Wednesday
almost concluding a week of drugs. haha, today was so weird in so many ways, it was kind of cool though. I feel like I didn’t get anything done. at all.
goodnight everybody
I need to get some sleep/ gain sobriety this week
Oh, Julia,
thetumblrofadam:
I got Bibio and Dada Life. They’re really good.
But I’ve mostly listened to Dada Life haha
yeaahhh!!! bibio is kinda… out there, they have songs from all kinds of genres all jammed into one… and I guess thats why I like it so much. dada life is good but its not exactly something you can listen to all the time but its goooood stuff. haha
oh man
I’m reading the same posts on tumblr over and over and going on myspace and finding nothing new. I’m so sick of using the computer I’d rather be actually with people. Or at least have somebody to talk to even online… I wish I had online friends haha. I used to have online friends when I was little, it was pretty cool. But now the only people I’m affiliated with on the...
oh god
these past four days…
not-rickied them up.
haha and you most likely wont know what im talking about unless you happen to be at my table in art class… and only one has a tumblr and probably won’t read this, yeah.
schools gonna bite. i should try to see how long i can go like this
goodnight
I’m so glad that I finally have an appointment tomorrow, and missing school is a plus.
starting tomorrow
I will accomplish something involving music.
because I am sick, and tired, of waiting
but after today I realized I can make whatever I want, and your opinion of it doesn’t matter to me because its my expression and it does NOT have boundaries. I will go as far as my synth and computer can take me until I learn more and keep building on.
I see the same thing
on tumblr every day
you guys are so fucking boring, im sorry.
I mean I love all you individually, but the shit you post is stupid sometimes. like, when you post stuff about your views on things that I’ve read a million times, and its the same thing, maybe a different picture, same point, same over all message
damn talk about something else for once
and I know you guys are all going to...
this has been
one hell of a weekend.
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Do you play any instruments? Which ones?
I play guitar, piano, and synthesizer… and I consider synthesizer different than piano even though the keys are different, its a completely different thing since you don’t play piano songs on a synthesizer I guess? haha I don’t know. I suck at playing all of these and I wish I could be better but I’m just too lazy.
formspring 22
Do you play video games?
well lets see… the last time I played was at favian’s house when him and jz taught me how to play halo 3 odst which i sucked at but it was my first time playing…
other than that im pretty into super smash bros (melee and brawl) and I will always use kirby, always did. I can’t exactly beat ness or lucas (my brother always uses those two) because...
On the real
god I hate it when people say that
but
for real
night night.
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formspring 21
How are you so awesome?
How am I so awesome? how are you so awesome?
formspring 20
ok jesus man. Kill one, marry one, and engage in intercourse with one. The options are miles, josh, and Spencer. hehe. this is band humor
engage in intercourse? haha alright let me tell you this: if I were playing this game with a few people in person i’d answer it. I remember last year in english someone was playing this game with spencer and it was pretty damn funny.
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greenstripedbeanie:
juliabalding:
ok shot out of a cannon, josh, spencer, miles. DOITTT
I don’t understand the question/comment
am I missing something?!
JULIA!!! You fuck one marry one kill one! Now you know! Go!
WHAT NOOO why them!? oh man I don’t want to cause any problems so I’m not gonna answer that one haha.
Spamming
my own dashboard.
hopefully you guys are following more people than I am so it looks like I’m posting less.
I didn’t go on yesterday and I feel like posting some stuff.
but what about? hmm sleep.
for the past 3 or 4 weeks I’ve been having major trouble sleeping. I get these weird anxiety attacks. Where I’m too cold but the comforter is too hot and way too heavy. and I...
formspring 19
Julia! You’re gorgeous with or without makeup and you never look like a clown with it on.
Thank you… I’m sorry if I’m being a downer I’m just not in the best of moods today :(
School.
I don’t want to slack and end up how I did last semester. I’m really having a hard time with this school deal though, I don’t know why. I just can’t handle it, and its only day two of the second semester.
I can’t sleep right, which makes me tired during the day, which makes me focus the most on trying to stay awake rather than what is being taught.
taking calculus...
go for it
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ok shot out of a cannon, josh, spencer, miles. DOITTT
I don’t understand the question/comment
am I missing something?!
formspring 17
Last year at school when my friends would see you they would say that it’s not fair that you are so naturally pretty and barely have to wear any makeup at all lol
thank you :) but I think otherwise. I don’t really like the way my face looks, but thats my face and I can’t really do anything about it so its whatever. my face, to me, is way too… simple. I’m one of those...
and I'm off!
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Let's See!
so its uhh
12:50am
if I go to bed right now, it’ll take me an hour minimum to get to sleep
which means get to sleep at 1:50… rounding up to 2:00
so, sleep at 2:00am, wake up at 6:30, and I have twenty minutes to get ready, then leave the house by 6:50. get parking, sleep again, chill till 7:50 then be late to class like I was every morning.
sounds like a plan, 4 and a half hours...
I remember last year;
I’d go to school and see how long I could go without talking to anyone.
and one day in particular I remember going until 3rd period was almost over, and guess who was the first person who talked to me?
Kevin Jin.
I know, seems so random. I just thought of it since you’re posting up a storm here…
I’m just letting you know my day started looking up after that.
all I can picture myself doing
tomorrow:
is sitting in 6 different classrooms with the same expression on my face.
Ambivalence Avenue- Bibio
haha great first song...
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FormSpring 12. It really isn’t your fault that other people make a bunch of assumptions based on what they read in your posts and everything, so don’t blame yourself for it. It’s their fault that they don’t consider the possibilities and chances that your posts are or aren’t about them. It’s just something to think about, I guess. Also, I like how you just...